It seems to me that our thoughts and beliefs have consequences, whether or not these consequences themselves are immediately obvious. The one who dwells constantly on what is good may suffer in this life, but he or she will have a type of happiness unavailable to the one who does not seek what is good with all of his heart. Marcus Aurelius notes, “The things you think about determine the quality of your mind. Your soul takes on the color of your thoughts” (Meditations tr. Gregory Hays, Modern Library, 2002, 59). Whether or not we truly live in a causal world, we certainly make decisions based on assumptions of cause and effect. If I dwell on a tempting croissant, I am much more likely to buy it than if I distract myself with other thoughts. The more I look at an appealing book on the shelf in a store, the more likely I am to purchase it. Wishing to avoid an argument with an obnoxious acquaintance, I take a detour and avoid walking down his street or frequenting the haunts in which he is likely to appear. To render this in even simpler terms: the sun shines, and we feel warm. It rains and the earth grows damp. The wind blows and the leaves start to scurry across the street. We think of loved ones, and we telephone them or cross the city to go meet them.
There are costs to our beliefs and thoughts, just as there are effects to causes, whether the consequences of our beliefs are good or bad. It is a good thing to have nice books. At one point I had several thousand of them. I have downsized my library, because my love of books made my living conditions cramped. Moreover, I found myself spending money I did not really have to cover my walls with volumes of poetry, history, art, literature and philosophy that I did not have sufficient time to read. Debt, as most people will agree, is not a good thing. A good desire and its fulfilment—the acquisition of knowledge and wisdom—came at a great cost, because I was careless.
Today, we have yet to admit the untold costs that various ideas have incurred throughout history on both social and individual levels. Our bloody wars, eroded cultures, and ruined societies are evidence of these costs. Perhaps we are too busy looking for the newest idea to stop and think whether or not our older ideas were worthwhile or not. Perhaps we are too addicted to bad ideas to consider whether or not it is time to jettison outdated thoughts and mature into new ways of thinking and being. As for new ideas, it is hard to calculate where they will lead, since we do not have the gift of seeing into the future. In this sense, we are all gamblers and debtors, racking up costs we have no way to properly measure or pay, and gambling with our lives and futures with ideas we may not have sufficiently examined.
In this light, Pascal’s Wager is not as insane as it sounds. What is striking to me about Pascal’s Wager is not the gambling aspect of it, but the fact that it is a philosophical model that considers the cost of belief. It is one of the early examples of game theory. In the New Testament, we see something similar in a parable that Jesus tells the people: “For which of you, desiring to build a tower, does not first sit down and count the cost, whether he has enough to complete it? Otherwise, when he has laid the foundation and is not able to finish, all who see it begin to mock him, saying, ‘This man began to build and was not able to finish.’ Or what king, going out to encounter another king in war, will not sit down first and deliberate whether he is able with ten thousand to meet him who comes against him with twenty thousand? And if not, while the other is yet a great way off, he sends a delegation and asks for terms of peace. So therefore, any one of you who does not renounce all that he has cannot be my disciple” (Luke 14:28-33).
Jesus, that wonderful man we applaud and ignore, puts forth an argument of stunning philosophical import. No matter what we believe, we will pay for it, and we should therefore calculate the costs before we commit ourselves to beliefs, thoughts, and opinions. In an age of science and convenient technology, we do not have time, motivation or necessity to calculate costs. We figure that they have already been calculated for us, or we believe ourselves to be above the herd of those “others” who do not think the way we do. What is especially amusing is that both the highly educated and the completely ignorant often share precisely this exact same mode of arrogant reasoning, if one can call it reasoning. It is not surprising, therefore, that we live in a world burdened and broken by debt.
Our souls are faced with the insurmountable problems of imperfection and death. No sane person believes he is perfect and can cheat death. If anything, the more disillusioned we become, the more ripe we are for enlightenment. Unless our reason has been severely compromised, with or without fault, we generally want this losing game of life to mean something to us before we die. As individuals and as societies, we have created a world of debits without credits. We are bankrupt. And still, we are busy trading our futures, selling our temporal selves, and gambling with our thoughts and actions. Only Jesus offers us a way out of the cost of living. It is true that believing in Him has its own costs—He was the first to say so and the first to pay the price. On the other hand, these costs are only temporal, while the benefits that outweigh them are eternal.
The great illusion today is that only temporal and material things matter. And not only in the marketing industry or politics, but also in Church. As long as our buildings stand, our collections are full, and we see tangible results—more people converting to our particular brand of Christianity—we are happy. What is ironic is that it is precisely this mode of thinking that seems to wreak the most damage on temporal and material things. Most bad ideas today, whether in the secular community or in the Church, derive in some fashion from the denial of eternal values in favor of temporal and material values, whereas the latter cannot be conceptualized, examined or lived out in any meaningful way without reference to the former. It is our bad ideas that have cost us so much. Through our bad beliefs, we have destroyed our environment, reduced millions to slavery or wage slavery, have murdered millions of unborn infants, we have murdered or tortured millions of men, women and children, we have sowed worldwide discord and blood-feuds through military, cultural and economic imperialism, we have prostituted and corrupted ourselves, we have traded beautiful ideas for cheap mass produced products and cookie-cutter lifestyles, and we have had the audacity to call our ideologies progress, evolution, or even freedom. Moreover, we have confused millions by teaching lies—suggesting that people are free to formulate their own morality, that life has no real meaning, that anything spiritual is obsolete, that our lifestyles are merely matters of personal choice, that freedom means being enslaved by the passions and letting them blaze away in chaotic unrestraint, that only materialistic solutions (whether liberal and socialistic or conservative and capitalistic) can have any effect on the world, and that happiness is a matter of satisfying our wants rather than our true needs on both a temporal and eternal scale.
In Immanuel Kant’s moral argument for the existence of God, one of the important premises is that we are rationally obliged to pursue the summum bonum (the greatest possible good). Because the summum bonum cannot be conceived or pursued without reference to eternity, the afterlife, and God, therefore—the argument concludes—God exists. Proving the existence of God is not my special concern here. I do believe God exists; I do believe logic points us to His existence, but I believe in the end that God is primarily approached through faith, hope and love by His grace and revelation. What interests me here is the notion of the summum bonum—the greatest good, the ultimate perfection, the good life, the true happiness. I do not think that we have the requisite imagination today to even conceive of a summum bonum. Perhaps too many decades of secular education, cultural and political disillusionment, and other problems have broken us to the point of being too scared to dream, imagine or believe in such a thing. We are down and out. Nevertheless, I believe that Boethius’ argument for God’s existence still holds true—if we see gradations of good and evil in this world—and it is ridiculous and hypocritical to say that we do not (especially when you visit the eye doctor or receive your grades back at the end of the school year)—then there is a perfect goodness, and that perfect goodness is the God who is the source of all goodness. Are we really willing to live our lives at the cost of losing the greatest good? Can we claim to be rational while dismissing our only chance at fully knowing ourselves, the meaning of our lives, and the meaning of others? Are we willing to deny this theodicy, and allow evil and pain to have the last word? Is this a cost we are willing to bear? Is it a cost we can rationally afford to bear?
It is with a Bible verse that Paul Virilio cites several times in Open Sky that I wish to close this little rant today: “For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul?” (Matthew 16:26).